Sunday, February 28, 2010, 4:50 AM
I really dunnoe wad happened to myself tis few days always having such problem ... Really dunnoe wad to do ... I cry everyday is lyk a baby always cry but i really cnt take it so cry it out... nobody willing there to cheer me up when i am really down .. cos i also dunnoe why i didnt do anything wrong also can make a person angry ... he angry jiu really scary ... i dunnoe hw to cheer .. i wanna make myself nt to always make ppl angry can? why does god u so punish me until liddat? i knoe i am nt really a gd gal but i willing to try and be better gal... but why u keep punishing me by making someone angry of me u knoe i cnt dun talk to him if he started moodswing or angry god u knoe how i feel ma? i feel lyk commit sucide do u knoe?? cos wadever i talk to him he will jus say no or dun talk ... when i apologise to him he will say nt u or DUN APOLOGISE! u knoe how i feel when he say tht .. is really lyk crying ... god u will knoe i only scared of ppl who is angry or ppl who is moodswing and sad... u cr8 me and u sure will knoe... but why yet u still punishing me by let him do all tis tht i scared? i really feel lyk crying ... and everyday i cry cos of this... And today worst he suddenly ask me lent him my fb he wan login i ask why only he jiu angry and say DUNNID LAR DUNNID ALREADY LAR.. i was really dunnoe wad to do anymore... so i say hais ... he say DELETE ALL UR FB STATUS! i say which one and why than he say JUS DELETE! WADEVER AND EVERYTHING AND PLS SET UR FB AS PRIVATE !!! Than i was lyk damn scared already dunnoe wad to do when i go see my fb totally all his comment to me ALL he delete so i no choice i delete all also.. i was so sad ... cos he angry he wan me delete everything ... T.T .. i knoe now no point crying but i really dunnoe wad to do anymore ... I am totally lost ! everyone have problems i knoe but why my problems is x10 of their problems? everything i do was rite or wrong also ppl will angry of me ... Can i ask u god why? Hw can i cng myself so tht nobody will be angry of me and be very gd to me? Hw??? Okays to those who come read my blog wad i have done wrong pls tell me i really very guity of wad i had done ! so pls tell me wad i done wrong cos i wan to cng to better person tht ppl see le won hate ... jus say out i won do anything but i will try to cng ... so tell! dun keep in ur heart! once u keep nth can cng me! if u wan me have better life than jiu tell out... if dun tell out forever in ur heart u also won feel gd and i cnt cng ... if i cnt cng nobody in tis world will lyk me and care about me already ... i will thanks u if u really let me cng .. End here cos i cnt really see cleary cos i am crying ... sorrie ...
