Wednesday, March 31, 2010, 2:41 AM
today is a weird day ... suddenly we qureal for 2 tym !! sigh ... ii really lost of word... ii really feel lyk i am a distoryer to everyone... suddenly my stead say he wan cng .. ii lyk now his attitude more... i dunnoe if he cng wad will he become ... ii just feel lyk smth is really bad happening... once he cng he maybe can be no joke no nth from tmr... ii really dunnoe wad i can say... ii just knoe tht i am always a big DISTROYER! when ppl happy happy i make dao them angry, sad , moodswing.. make them wan scold ppl ... ii let them scold.. but they dunwan ... they wan scold those ppl who is inocent ... sorrie to those ppl tht they scold u ... if u wan revence come find me bah...ii let u scold back ... ii really feel lyk ending my life although gt ppl stop me ... but ii really cnt stay in tis world anymore one day i stay more and more ppl get hurt ... why?? so i rather let everyone happy and me tis DISTROYER MIA from tis world... ii dunwan ppl get hurt anymore... ii really sorrie and i apologize to those who get scolding from ppl who angry of me... ii really gt nothing to say to anyone...once i open my mouth to talk sure hurt alot ppl ... if posible ii rather ii am the one who suffer all scolding and beating or anything ... and everytym when i make someoen angry or anything or nobody to talk to ii sure think back all wad my aunt say to me ... JOMIN U ARE USELESS NO HOPE DUN THINK OF HAVING HOPE! U ARE TOTALLY USELESS! thn wad should i do to make myself nt a useless person? did anyone teach me? nobody teach cos all have given up their hearts on me ... cos i knoe ii only always think about myself but nt others ... really hope there is ppl who still gib me hope and say to me JOMIN U ARE NT A USELESS PERSON COS I ALWAYS SURPORT U ... but my mind will think wad a useless JOMIN U ARE ... cos there is nobody who say i have hope to me... but quite alot ppl say yah u are a useless gal ... yah indeed i am ... ii hurt alot ppl... ii make alot ppl angry ... make alot ppl sad and moodswing... can u all pls forgive me... ii really gt nth to save myself ... ii knoe nobody can save me also cos already deeply drop into a useless place tht ppl always think tht i am .... ii knoe ii always hurt ppl but ppl also gt hurt me ii can heal hurt from u all... ii need u all de cheer so tht i can stand up again be a gd person ... Although u all hurt me deeply did i ever come and make u all ? nope i didnt... u all hurt me i jus let u all hurt but i didnt blame u all at all cos ii also hurt ppl b4 ... ii get back wad i hurt ... sorrie everyone ... ii am quite a useless person ... there is only 2 person in my life cheering me now... ( My stead and Er jie ) ( laogong Jason and PeiiHuii )
