Wednesday, April 21, 2010, 10:59 PM
Hmm Keeping Something inside myself is really suffering ~ Just wan a simple and Happy life ~ No disturbing , No Stressfulness, No Sadness, Just Hoping Wad i wish can come true ~ Have HAppYness, Have Gd Relationship wif my laogong, dunwan any extra ppl come disturb make dao our Relationship always didnt go well ~ Always Qureal For Things Tht Should nt happened to us... Just because Of Some Ppl Who make Us Everyday HAving Problems Towards Each Other... Hoping To Solve All Tis Things And Won Ever Ever Ever Happened Again Anymore ... Cos I Dunwan Gib Up My Relationship Liddat Just cos of some ppl who always do things to make us seperate... The more They wan Come Hurt me The more i won gib up becos i dunwan Let them have wad they wan.. Cos My Life Is Being Control By my own i have my own desition... I won Just Gib Up On My relationship and My True Lover ... He Will Be My Forever And I won ever Let him go no matter wad happened ... U all do Bad Things Just wan to break our relationship... U think Tis will happened ma? I dun really Think so becos I truly love him i won leave him wif no reson ... If u wan break our relationship liddat i have nth to say ... but i just knoe tht i won wan leave him ... If Really Wan Break our relationship by doing all tis and he agree u all to do tht thn i really nth to say ... but i dun think he will wan to leave me... but if he really wan i have nth to say... so u all must ask him ... Althought i knoe i cnt leave without him.. bt if u all continue liddat making our relationship worst and worst i also lost word le cos say dao die also u all won understand my feeling ... cos my feeling and my loves only very simple ... just wan stay wif him and be happy always ... nobody come farn us nobody come disturb us nobody come ask for money for nth nobody flirt wif him thts all.. is tht very hard for u all gals? Hey Gals If Turn back to be u .. and i am the one who come hurts u and make ur relationship liddat will u be sad? Could u all just think back and Try understand me abit... nt i wan hate u all u knoe .. i also dunwan have regrets in my life for hate ppl ... I wan my life be fresh de.. but if turns back be u.. u also will hate me rite? Tis is how come i so hate u all .. cos i dunwan my relationship to end up become sadness and full of hurts... U all can find Others Tht is single ma? Why U all wan come always find guys tht is attach and make them have a broken relationship? God Also Lyk To see everyone in the world have a happy relationship and nt snatching others de happy relationship... althought i knoe nt all guys can trust but i no matter how my laogong treat me i still believe and trust in him... but he is lyk have a feeling tht i dun trust and believe me... So he always lyk Wu hui me for nt Trusting him.. but in my heart no matter he lie or wad i still believe and trust him ... But i think he can feel it bah.. but i won gib up ... sure one day i make him trust in me... at lease 1 tym i also happy... means i sucess... But i didnt blame him for nt trusting me .. cos i knoe ii am nt the perfect gal tht she wan... She wan MORE PERFECT ... but i trying my best to cng le ... I trying to Cng To A Perfect Gal Tht she wan to have... Today morning i Tried... And I Let Him do wad he wan and didnt wan to qureal wif him about the past.. And He Keep saying i moody.. he again dun trust me tht i am nt ... cos ii trying to cng ma so i let u do wad u wan and didnt nag at u today.. thts why quite quite.. and he say i moody... t.t... Nt i moody is i trying nt to nag at u nt to stop u from anything ... And Stay clam althought anything happened... example he told me " laopo my ex text or call me say wan lent from me money again?" I say to him orh... i didnt qureal back.. Cos Let him do wad he wan.. if he thinks tht he should gib i won stop if he thinks tht should nt gib thn he won gib... I Control myself for not nagging at him ... cos i knoe he told me once yesterday say " GALS ARE ALL THE SAME AND SELFISH" So every single tym my mind is keeping on repeating tis sentence to me JOMIN U ARE USELESS JOMIN U ARE USELESS and JOMIN U ARE SELFISH JOMIN U ARE SELFISH.. Cos thts wad ur own laogong says to u... So means it is truth u must face the fact JOMIN! Thn i think Yah I agree I am useless I am Selfish ... If nt The own laogong won say tht out de.. Cos He cnt tahan my chacter of selfishness and useless thts why he say out his heart de word le ... let me keep thinking the same thing since he say to me until now.. i cnt even forget... Is lyk keep making me sad and crying.. cos Keep repeat in my brain ... When Slp , Eat and others also keep repeating ... repeat dao i now very scared already.. thts why i wan cng cng cng! I wan Cng .. SO tis word tht keep repeating can get away from my head... If nt is lyk i very blur ~ Keep having tis few sentence in my brain! I cannot take it anymore ~ Hoping today wad i do have at lease cng me 1% out of 100%... hmm i ownself also cnt say whether did i cng ? Must let my laogong decide whether did i cng at lease 1% today? or how many % He thinks i cng le? ( Laogong Once U read Tis Le Tell me in msn The ans Whether is how many percent u think i cng today? And Wad u wan me cng more Just say ~ Cos I willing to cng myself and make our relationship full of joyfullness and Happyness... ) Okays Should End Here First Wait dao my laogong wake up from sleeping and Gib Me Answer In msn ~ Continue Later Or tmr ~
