Monday, April 26, 2010, 5:21 PM
Sigh... Now i understand my laogong alot le... I today realise tht he talk to every gals is so happily de ... every tym when he talk to other gals always have a big smile and always laugh... he always will be very happy de... once talk to me he will lyk orh orh orh or lyk quite .. didnt laugh de... always i talk to him he will just say orh continue ps i playing game... i dunnoe whether did he hear wad i say but nevermind also nt important at all ... wad i say is CRAPS ma... dunnid listen also nevermind de... is totally different when he talking to me tis gal and other gal ... talking to me is emo emo sad sad no mood no mood no laughter no smile no nothing ... but to other gal example lyk my cousin, my frenz or his frenz and gans sure he laugh laugh happy happy smile smile de... sigh i failed to be a good gf tht he wan.. he wan gal tht make him smile make him happy and others... but always wad i knoe about myself is when talk to him sure he didnt talk to me much de always ask me talk talk talk and he listen ... he no reaction when i talk to him de only orh orh orh continue continue i playing games ... thn i say orh u wan play games go play bah he say no no u continue i listening ... sigh... Why cnt i be lyk other gal? Tht can make him laugh all tht ... WHY I FAILED! Since Yesterday i thinking about tis whenever i see him chatting wif other gals sure he smile de but didnt see him smile when talks to me... sigh... Yesterday i keep hitting my head using my hand and thinking wad has happened to me ?? Why cnt i be wif lyk same as other gal tht can make him laugh all tht? I Already do my best nt to be other gal stop bf do tis do tht ... example lyk bf talk to gals jiu break wif him... i didnt! I Try to ren and think nth happened liddat... but why he still think i worst thn other gal? thn if i be the same as other gal liddat sure he think i selfish .. so whether i be gd or bad he still think i am bad ... thn wad can i do to cng?????? I ask Him and he didnt wan to ans me! can PLS GIB ME ANS HOW CAN I CNG MA???? i just wan to cng to a half perfect gal i knoe nobody can be perfect but at lease gib me knoe wad u wan rite? so i can cng rite? u keep in ur heart how u wan me knoe wad u wan? if i didnt say out anything in my heart will u knoe? sigh... nevermind lar up to u ... wad u wan do or say jiu do and say bahh .. i got nothing to say anymore... sorrie let u down... continue later ...
