Monday, April 19, 2010, 4:35 PM
sighh... grandma going operation today .. hope she get well soon ... sorrie grandma for the past not being good to u and always make u angry shout shout shout... Anyway miss u ... and hope u rest well at aunt jennifer house bah... ii now is very sad ... keep on cry for some reson ... first grandma problem... second is stressness... 3rd is cos of one person cry i saw the person cry i sure will cry ... ii ask him to say out all the sadness and ii will try my best to help.. he say to me ... Mum scold, last tym result and stressness and all... so i ask him and all is wad? example wad thing can say out ma? he is lyk keep saying nth nth nth ... ii willing to help but he dun willing to say to me and let me help... ii was lyk quite sad le... but i controling ... thn i say to him nahh is okays if u dunwan say it to me i knoe u not confortable to say to me ... u can jus go tell anyone u confortable wif and tell them all wadever thing in ur heart and ask them for help ... no matter ur ex , ur gans, ur buddy , my uncle , my cousin or anyone.. he tell me tht i dunwan tell ur uncle dunwan tell ur cousin i say is okay if u dunwan tell them... u can tell others... thn he say ok ... i say okay thn tell them ask them for help bah since u nt confortable to me ... he say okay i go tell my buddy... i say okay luh go tell her luh ask her help u .. he say okay... now ii knoe le the buddy is more pro and he is more confortable wif his buddy only... as a gf i nt even pro and confortable for him... ii knoe.. sorrie ... anyway thn he say aiyah u wan knoe wad u ask i tell out i say i didnt say i wan to knoe anything jus wan u say out wad is making u stress and everything in ur heart and dun keep in ur heart lyk me ... IT REALLY SUFFER ALOT.. cos i always also liddat so i knoe how is the feeling when u keep it alone ... but seriously those who read my blog now u all gt alot of ppl to care about u not lyk me ... so dun learn from me dun keep in ur heart anything at lease tell to one person u confortable wif .. if is me jus come and tell me i willing to solve for ppl problems and sadness all tht ... ii won reject ur help... anyway back to jus now... ii ask him tell out luh all the sadness he say nth nth i say aiyah dunwan tell me jiu go tell those u confortable wif ... thn he suddenly say wad cos bla bla bla tht is no sense to his sadness or anything so i say no such thing .. keep saying all things tht i knoe is nt real de so i say no such thing imposible tis tis tht tht make u liddat ... he say wad i say u also say no such thing i say cos really ma i knoe is nt real ofcos say is no such thing luh... i say wah dun say rubish leh say the truth... thn he say since u say i say rubish dun talk lar thn hang my call... ii didnt blame him i knoe i say smth wrong ... he wan cold war again wif me liao sigh... nevermind luhh ... he wan forgive jiu forgive if he dunwan to forgive thn wait for him forgive luh... so i tell him in msn say tht ''Nevermind since u dunwan talk to me thn go talk to ppl tht u lyk to talk to bah... think i didnt say or ask u anything'' anyway jus to let u knoe i didnt blame u or anything jus wan u to tell out and solve ur sadness only .. as easy as tht.. i didnt wan things big and complicated ... so if u wan blame me from anything can jus blame bah... I knoe some ppl dun understand wad i am talking but ii already try my best to explain wad i wan to say ... Hope u all understabd bahhh T.T....
